What's the use of wund'rin, if the ending will be sad

It was written, it was prophecised, it was inevitable . That's girls's betrayal has culminated in the end of us, and in the continuation of a war I should have never had to have fought. It hurts, it hurts more than anything ever has. The only good that can be extracted from this is my mindset, and the choices I've taken to implement the plan ive had for so many years and promised myself I would implement. It will never happen again. I'll never let a girl abuse me like that again, and never allow her to allow others to abuse me. I have been ridiculed and humiliated as a result of her actions, yet I allowed it to happen. I wish I had fought back, I wish I had used all my rage and channeled that into destroying them. I expect I will regret that, the most. I will have to have the image of that boy's foot repeatedly kicking my eye, with the thought occupying it that he was only there because she led him there, only there because she knew it would hurt me. He supplied the kick, but she may as well have put the shoe on his foot for him. That image will replay in my mind forever, the eye that was torn open before was this time torn open emotionally. Only my right eye will see the present, my left will now see the past.To be hurt the worst by the one I love the most, what greater emotional agony exists above that? I suspect none.