This has fallen to pieces

Now what?! Just where do I go from here?! I have no idea where im going or what I am doing. My life has gone from top to bottom in the space of a few hours. How have I become this mirror image of what she was a year ago, how does this work? Surely I can just be me from a year ago, want to be alone, be happy to be alone, thrive to be alone. I'm stuck in limbo, and I hate it. Despite everything that has ever happened to me, this appears to be the hardest challenge. I foresaw it. I listened to songs that echoed the future, now how quick am I gonna get up, just how am I gonna get up?!